Monday Muses

Waiting…

I go and take my seat and wait.

As the seconds drown into minutes

 I stare at the door and sigh,

Staring aimlessly at the door

And it slowly fades away from me

Spiraling away until it is out out of my line of vision.

Waiting…

When will you come?

When will you fulfill the promises you made?

When will you learn to fill the shoes you have?

I know your family is a wreck and everyone is counting on you to brace yourself for the strong winds you are facing.

But when will you realize that you’re so young and you have a life to look foreward to?

When will you turn around and see I’m here for you?

When will you notice that everyone feels for you through your pain and we can see under that smile you are slowly suffering and it is slowly overpowering you?

Waiting…

The door comes back out of the darkness and I slowly wake out of my daze.

Maybe I’ll never see you again.

Maybe I’ll never see you again because fate wants to have its way.
I remember your cousin told me

“If you have dreams about each other, you’ll end up that way in the future”.

What a pitiful lie…

To think that for the both of us to be together and everything going fine that nothing would ruin us.

To think that anything would knock us off course, I thought nothing could keep us apart.

Then came the evil time that ripped us apart…

First it was distance which was okay knowing you could text me and we could still see each other. Then you stopped responding. I would send a text and hearing it buss because of it vibrations hitting the table and the ringtone of

“Daddy why did you eat my fries?”

I would be so happy I would run to my phone hoping I could get a taste of the other side.

Just to hear your voice would help me through.

But everytime it wasn’t you, my heart would falter and die every time.

Then curiosity slowly crept in…

Maybe you met someone?

Maybe she was better than me and I slowly crept out of your mind.

Maybe I barely existed to you.

So now, I can’t wait anymore.

I need to get on with my life.

I need to get over you and forget.

Just having what we used to be as a spell and a curse

Both haunting and endearing at the same time.

Maybe fate will have its way and we will find our way back to each other…

But till then, I have to let go.

I can’t hold onto to our love forever.

And maybe now and then you will remember me.

And you will smile and have no pain hiding under the surface.

I can no longer…

Wait.

 

Queen Bee - Chynna Clugston

Milan Castro                                                                                                      October 11^th, 2013

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R.R. - Theme

            In the book “Queen Bee” by Chynna Clugston, there are many themes to follow while you are reading the book. A theme I noticed was true friends will always have your back. I noticed this theme during the book three times; once in the beginning, once in the middle and finally one in the end.

            My first example is on page 13. In this part, Haley (protagonist) has just transferred to a new school because of her mom’s job and wants to be the queen bee. So she has a girl named Trini show her around school. I feel like this connects to my theme because Trini showed her around out of the kindness in her heart, not just to get out of class the other kids wanted to do earlier in this part. She also tells her who to hang out with and who to not hang out with because she doesn’t want Haley to get into the wrong crowd and not have any friends.

            My second example is on pages 44-45. In this part, Haley had ditched Trini to become popular and started hanging out with the most popular girls in school (the Hive) till soon she was the most popular girl in school. Then the new girl Alexa Harmon came in and Haley was slowly being shoved out of the Hive! This connects to my theme as well because in the beginning of the book, Trini told her she shouldn’t hang out with those girls yet she did anyway because she wanted to get popular and didn’t listen to her and now she doesn’t have any friends and she is going to be the “mousy girl” all over again.

            My third and last example is on page 107. In this part, Haley is now not in the Hive anymore since Alexa made it look like Haley she threw a lunch tray at her. After this “incident”, she met her new friend Jasper who is now her only friend. And after they won this singing competition, she apologized to Trini because she knew Trini was right all along about the Hive and how they’re not good friends; then she forgave her. This shows my theme because since Trini is a true friend, she forgave her and mended their broken friendship.

            In conclusion you need true friends to help you, not phony friends. I can connect to this because I have had various friends that I sometimes regret having because they weren’t really my friends. Yet I also value them because they also showed my which people to stay away from.